My top nine photos of 2019
My photos and journey, top photos around the world, tracking our faces, and implicit bias
|Steven Wakabayashi||Dec 9, 2019|| 2|
These nine photos perfectly capture the essence of my self-discovery journey this year, but the top 3 photos really stand out as moments that changed my life.
In San Francisco, I had all of the superficial things that one could have - good money, a great career, incredible body, beautiful friends, and a bustling nightlife personality… but it was never enough. It wasn’t until my body had collapsed that I was able to really assess where I was headed towards.
It wasn’t until I left it all that I started to truly find myself, including prestigious job offers at top companies that I had worked so hard for my entire career.
As a part of my journey, I left everything to meditate around the world. Except, when I first started, I didn’t know how to navigate the world of social media.
2019 was my first true foray into becoming a content creator.
When I was starting out, I was trying so hard to create the curated Instagram feed, color-grading all of my photos, creating a perfect layout, and following all of the social media advice I could find. Some of it worked (#8: Smiling on the Miami Shores and #5: Posing with a Bear), and some of it didn’t (my YouTube vlogs documented me shopping, eating, thinking… yeah.)
Ultimately, this was not fulfilling. Over time, my Instagram feed evolved into an unconventional written blog. Before this, I never took myself to be a writer. But in this journey, I’ve also found a love for words in expressing myself.
A bit funny for someone who learned English as a third language. Japanese was my first and Mandarin was my second.
This moment changed my life forever. (Or the culmination of my hospital visits)
After working too hard, playing too hard, exercising too much, and eating too much, my body just gave out. My last trip to burning man in 2017 really sent my body over the edge and my entire digestive system collapsed. I was in and out of the hospital for months unable to digest food and I barely remember any of my visits, because I was under heavy anesthesia for most of my time in the hospital.
I lost a lot of weight, including most of my muscle mass, during this process. Watching myself slowly wither away, unable to do anything about it, was one of the scariest experiences of my life. (Even during recovery, my body consciousness was still extremely hard to face, and I share some of it in #6: Body Positivity at Burning Man)
As a part of my healing, I changed my lifestyle, revamped my diet, and became completely sober (also shared about in #7: First Time Back to Burning Man). I worked with an amazing woman in the bay area that healed my body through holistic means.
Ultimately this experience pushed me to take the journey I did this year, traveling around the world and meditating in six different destinations and sitting in silence for almost two months. (One of the destinations in France was #9: Organic Farming at Plum Village)
In this process, I also had a huge shift in the community around me. During my illness and recovery, most of my friends had parted ways with me. As my perspectives and priorities changed, we no longer saw eye-to-eye with many things, especially with sobriety. A huge part of my work today is creating the community that I wish I had in this process. My mission and content are now dedicated to supporting others who are going on a very similar journey of finding mindfulness, spirituality, and self-identity.
A year in photos
From presidential mishaps to legalization of same-sex partnerships in Taiwan, these photos from CNN capture the intensity of emotions of 2019.
Other notable collections:
As China rapidly evolves its technological offerings, they make facial tracking a mandatory feature for anyone registering a new mobile phone number.
I heard about Harvard’s extensive quizzes measuring our implicit bias from a talk I attended recently. The results are quite eye-opening.
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